Wednesday, February 24, 2010

如烟



作词:五月天(石头/阿信) 作曲:五月天(石头/阿信)

坐在床前望着窗外回忆满天
生命是华丽错觉 时间是贼偷走一切
七岁那一年抓住那只蝉以为能抓住夏天
十七岁的那年吻过他的脸就以为和他能永远



有没有那麽一种永远 永远不改变
拥抱过的美丽都再也不破碎
让险峻岁月不能在脸上撒野
让生离和死别都遥远有谁能听见

我坐在床前转过头看谁在沉睡
那一张苍老的脸 好像是我紧闭双眼
曾经是爱我的和我深爱的 都围绕在我身边
带不走的那些遗憾和眷恋 就化成最後一滴眼泪

有没有那麽一滴眼泪能洗掉後悔
化成大雨降落在回不去的街
再给我一次机会将故事改写
还欠了他一生的一句抱歉



有没有那麽一个世界永远不天黑
星星太阳万物都听我的指挥
月亮不忙着圆缺 春天不走远
树梢紧紧拥抱着树叶有谁能听见

耳际眼前此生重演 是我来自漆黑而又回归漆黑
人间瞬间天地之间 下次我又是谁

有没有那麽一朵玫瑰永远不凋谢
永远骄傲和完美永远不妥协
为何人生最後会像一张纸屑
还不如一片花瓣曾经鲜艳



有没有那麽一张书签停止那一天
最单纯的笑脸和最美那一年
书包里面装满了蛋糕和汽水
双眼只有无猜和无邪让我们无法无天

有没有那麽一首诗篇找不到句点
青春永远定居在我们的岁月
男孩和女孩都有吉他和舞鞋
笑忘人间的苦痛只有甜美



有没有那麽一个明天重头过一遍
让我再次感受曾挥霍的昨天
无论生存或生活我都不浪费
不让故事这麽的後悔
有谁能听见 我不要告别

我坐在床前看着指尖已经如烟

ThiNk...

然而這世界
沒有 那麼一種永遠 永遠不改變
沒有 那麼一滴眼淚 能洗掉後悔
沒有 那麼一個世界 永遠不天黑
沒有 那麼一朵玫瑰 永遠不凋謝
沒有 那麼一張書籤 停止那一天
沒有 那麼一首詩篇 找不到句點
沒有 那麼一個明天 重頭活一遍

時間不停流走
抓不住也停不了
唯一證明時間的存在
就是心中的回憶
不管是恨 是愛~

一開始會覺得這首歌很灰暗。但聽久了,知道了[有沒有..... .....?]這些問題的答案。
只要勇敢面對現在,當你如煙逝去的時候。就算有很苦的後悔,伴隨 著的也是最美最甜的回憶。

人生本就是有喜有悲,重要的是你怎麼去活你這一生。
[無論生存或生活我都不浪費,不讓故事這麼的後悔。]

活著,珍惜每個真下,珍惜你今生遇到的每一個人事物,不讓自己留 遺憾,那就是真正活著,就算哪一天會死去,也可以死的很坦然無愧 ,至少用心活過~

這首歌已經明白表示人生沒有重頭來過的可能,我記得有位美國很有 名的教授說過:

人生的目標不在於一定要實現夢想,而在於 你沒有後悔的過每一天。

而要讓自已不再後悔,就應該「活在當下」,千萬別再讓自已活在後 悔的過去,不然最後也只能 如煙...

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

This CNY is really ____.

Something??

Tired
Lazy
Fever
Otaku
Surprise
Funny
Hidden benefits
Air conditioned
Homey
Zombie killing
Cheerful
Gathering
Relatives
Parallel
Inspiring
Memorable etc...

Honestly...

This CNY it's really HOT!!!~



What happen on the earth is this?? I never had such a feeling I'm being grill for the whole day not just by the sun! But by the temperature!! Damn... maybe this is a hidden hint for me to adjust my weight by sweating!? Not bad huh!? It's too bad!!

But that many thing we can do due to this over summer days. Those idea like picnic, Internet cafe jamming, Paint ball or other reasonable plan will fill up you and my mind. You may go for it. But this CNY... I'm not... well everybody is different!

When CNY is coming, the 1st thing that come up my mind is.... Cakes & cookies!! Not ang pau -_-"

Just wanna eat as much as I can when CNY. I herd it before someone said my stomach is like a small fridge that can fill tons of trash. Well, that's food... not trash. Anyway, Thanks god cause I'm a good food eater whom not weight any heavier!! XD



Without wasting time, I help my mom as much as I can to do those cakes and cookies. Those nostalgic feeling came to me when I help my mother. It's a precious and euphoria feeling. Mom talk about her past while I'm asking. We do have a nice time and conversation. I want to know more... about the stories of my family. It sounds history and beautiful slice of life. We really enjoy that moment.



OK!~ Everything turns upside down a few days before New Year Eve. Fever, sore throat, ulcer. They came again. No prawn, no eggs, no rice, no cookies, no cakes... everything end up with a "NO" word in front. "Sienz 到~" That the word I used to express my border-less bored. Luckily still have some strength to help my busy parents at home and go for a drink with friends at night. Left 4 Dead 2(zombie night) became our activity for several days... -_-" But it's really happy that I can meet up my friends that haven't meet a long time ago, as long as we can 'pawn' each other... XD




There is a lot livelier after my brother and sis' Jane coming back. We enjoy our meal and all the time we stay together. As a tradition, my relatives came visit us. And we go visited them as well. That special feeling attach to me to the closest... It's call - Family.

And recently I had take my PC back to hometown. So... temporary no downloads cause my house didn't have Internet cable. When I bored I can't online. So I pick up some anime series for a watch after my "abandon" XD
Everyday within the week I offline, I just watch those anime. And I found some of it is really amazing and awesome. One of them is...

Tegami Bachi a.k.a Letter Bee


Plot Summary: Apparently abandoned by his mother, orphan Lag Seeing is taken as a "letter" by "Letter Bee" Gauche Suede to a town where his aunt raises him. His affection and admiration for Gauche give Lag the ambition to become a Letter Bee himself, carrying mail through the dangerous wasteland between towns on his world. When he becomes a teenager, he makes the trip to the capital to take the examination to become a trainee Letter Bee. En route, he meets the strange, powerful girl-like creature Niche, who becomes his "dingo," a Letter Bee's traveling companion. Lag yearns to find his mother, and discover why she abandoned him, if she did.



This is kinda amazing anime series and makes me really into it. Every single episode is simple, easy to understand and touching. And one of the reason that makes me attract to it is the unique artwork. It's rare to see it's sunrise and morning. Even I don't understand why. Maybe their place coordinate is far from the sun shine. Morning = Night.
But those starry night, and the stories that been told, under the sky, fill my heart on. The staff had done a good job, having their OP and ED music which lead by famous artist Suga Shikao and Himeka. Nicely done!!~



Those stories generally tells about how the Letter Bees deliver the letter, the challenges they faced, every single of their personal stories. For them, a letter consist of memories, stories and feeling. How they do their best to protect and deliver those precious feelings and safely retrieve by the recipient. Or some times even in a fake letter. The main character - Lag Seeing is a crybaby. The young character with the pure heart and honest feeling which carry his courage to face the world. The stories touch me deeply. Even sometimes, it makes me wanna cry with them. (T.T)
Overall, the entire series was simply touching, like fantasy bed time fairy tales.



Oh yes!... I think this moment of off topic almost lead this post to a anime recommended post. But I think it's meaningful in many ways. XD
Well, I would learn to write song to deliver my feeling to others; To deliver those fairy tales to others; To connected people's feeling each other. Bring the honesty into this diverging world. Peace will lead our mankind to the future. Give myself a chance, give others a chance, give this world a chance. The reason is simply WE'RE THE WORLD!!



Every single CNY in my life contain it's memories and meaning. Just like every of our days are different. No matter it's a good or bad day, face it with our honesty. You'll know the difference.


CNY is a power to reunited everyone which is separated due to distance. A festival for us to gathering, to share our happiness. Treasure every single of it like you treasure every moment.
This CNY it's really UNMEASURABLE!!~


Click to view this meanigful stuff...

Gong Xi Fatt Choy~ ^^

Monday, February 8, 2010

1/285,000 = 真爱机率

英国一位精通数学的经济学家 Peter Backus, 把寻找外星文明的德瑞克方程式(Drake Equation) 套用在爱情上, 算出自己与真命天女相遇的机率是 1/285,000!
看到这数字, 有些人就释怀了。在茫茫人海寻览真爱,恰似在浩瀚星海寻找外星人,找不到伴,并不是我的错,对于爱情,其实不必全心全意地依靠。但也有另一派人,他们是虔诚的爱情信徒,他们不会因为世界充满了什么穹境就随波逐流,真爱难寻,但仍值得寻寻览览,在往后,他们会适时脱下高跟鞋/黑头皮鞋,用更踏实的脚步,去寻览真爱。

---1/285,000, 可以世释怀,也可以是激励,没有对或错,自己感觉舒服就好。

不过,不管你如何看待1/285,000, 在这里想传达的讯息是-
这个世界需要的不是情侣,而是, ‘’ !



张信哲:
爱情对我来说是一种精神状态,也许你和这个爱人的结局不是永远,你们未必永远在一起,但是爱这种精神状态是永远。爱情可以是投入一段关系,也可以是柏拉图式的,不一定要有实体关系。



黄立行:
我觉得很多人把爱情看得太虚幻,以致他们不懂得生活在当下。如果你像我一样不相信有下一辈子,只想在这一辈子做我想做的事,爱我想爱的人,就会对爱情特别有感觉吧。



王力宏:
我希望自己打出一球就全中的是婚姻。看到爸妈结婚30周年纪念时,我最想像他们一样,一次就是一生,快快乐乐,白头到老。



林奕华:
大女人小女人,和他们遇上的大男人小男人,在台上挥起欲望的刀剑互相残杀。不是爱情有问题,不是男人或女人有问题,出了问题的,是那些连自己都看不清来路和去处的盲目欲望。



吴克群:
我相信真正的爱情是一场长跑,有不停歇的爱,也会有偶尔的恨,关键是找到爱的平衡点。但是不要去干涉对方或者绑住对方,爱情需要自由。



梁朝伟:
在我印象中最完美的爱情就应该像我和我妈妈那样,无论我做错什么事,对方都会永远包容我。那便是我理想中的爱人。不过所谓理想,从来都不是真实的。



冯德伦:
爱情有时候和变魔术一样,它们令人著迷的事,明知道是假的,大家的目光还是忍不住被吸引。所以,大部分时候,我们要学会看到精彩魔术的时候,不要去寻根究底,能够幸福地鼓掌,开心地大笑,也就足够了。



张震:
我第一次觉得自己演到了戏,是《牯岭街少年杀人事件》,演完后,脑袋一片空白,不知道自己刚刚在干嘛,心跳加快,呼吸急促,有种莫名的兴奋。大家常常问我想要什么样子的爱情。我就说,差不多就是这个样子。



余文乐:
老天爷让一个人喜欢你,已经是对你很大的恩赐了,无论他喜欢你的头发还是睫毛,只要是他喜欢你,你就应该开心啊。



Brad Pitt:
金童玉女和才子佳人只是一个光环而已,真实生活的不过是两个普普通通的男人和女人。孔雀华丽羽毛的背后一样有难看的屁股,我们只不过现在才转过身让人看到而已。



方中信:
我们总企图给自己喜欢的人加上标签,知晓天文地理又富有生活情趣,必要时还要懂得跳华尔兹以及热吻得当。从未想过自己是否愿意,他们的人生道路或许不高兴那么理所当然。

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

Direction



The time has come... for me to choose my own path. Every single path gain something different, everything single path sacrifice something different. For short, every single choice is different. Maybe some waste word is there. Yes, choice is set to be different. South, east, north, west. You take a pick, you'll miss opportunity to take the others or you have to wait.



Well, in my opinion... our life is full of storm and sunshine. All the stories, link with our power to decide. You have to think deeply before you make a good or the right decision.
I feel somehow empty and tired lately. Yes, myself does it. That is just me, N, oneself. Think, keep thinking. Even lost the strength, to struggle. I wonder who, how, and when (something or) someone will let me wake up.

- Going KL or stay in T.I looking for job, support my family.
- Going KL to further study for music, searching opportunity for my own career.
- Support by church and further my study to Singapore in order to serve god forever.
- Keep my composing, attend some music class, work in cafe for acoustic live show, seeking opportunity for studio company contract.
- Free Enterprise Biz

Many advice I've hear. Many information i get. But... still...



In mean time, I try to imagine. Why time can't stop... What expression (a) time has... What if time became a living creature... Is it on good or bad side? Angel or demons.
At the same time, time pass as usual. Since I'm not a time-traveler. I can't control time.
It can't be help. It's just doing the part it had to. The time.



Wikipedia: Time is part of the measuring system used to sequence events, to compare the durations of events and the intervals between them, and to quantify the motions of objects.

This neutral measurement can be cruel, can be kind. People say 'you have to be cruel to be kind'. There is something mystery and deep meaning hiding within this phrase. I still digesting what the real meaning is. Maybe it's not as complicated as it seems. Simply just a clear meaning that link over this diverging world.



So, what'll I become he day after tomorrow?? Maybe after a few hours, days, years or decades... did I still exist in the real time? Exist in this world? Exist in the memory of people I meet and those around me? What about next??



I had made a decision when I writing the previous line. No matter what I'll become, I'll do what I need to do until the end.
Although I'm weak and too dependable. But there is the time I had to stand, alone. I will walk in the dark, even darker then black; with the small burning flame in my heart. Signify that I will continue my journey to feel the world.



Keep my will of survive that slowly vanishing the feeling of fear. Open my mind, live freely like Gintoki. Searching for the simple and innocent happiness. Enjoy every second and treasure everybody around me.

The occupation that most likely I'll involve...
Christian missionary, musician, artist, music producer, music educator, sound engineer, photographer, novelist, director, celebrities, host, commediant, ecologist, reporter, researcher, chef, food critic, web designer, programmer, interior designer, fashion designer, barber, image consultant, business consultant, etc...



Not matter what, everyday start with your eyes open, waking from your sleep. The second of you - the main character playing and directing in a movie call "LIFE".
No matter what the storyline or the plot is, live it yourself, be yourself.
Maybe there's up rise climax and trip fall adjustment. But, that is the most precious story that paint your colorful life.



No matter how I choose, how you choose...
Direction, the way we headed, without regret!

Yeah!! Howling in the dawn!! Howling in the mist!! Rock till the end of our life on earth!! Splay the graffiti of your life!! The fantasy afterlife is the continuation to eternity...

Oh my God, thanks for giving me air to breath, using my brain, my eyes and my hand to write this. You're the way!!